Emma Go Slither Ankle Boots (via Anthropologie)
Anthropologie satchel (2013)
All Saints Vita coat (currently in store, but from 2012)
Anthropologie Pachacuti Quills Floppy hat (2013)
Sorry for the lack of posts recently!
What I'm going to tell pretty much mets with the new Woody Allen movie "Blue Jasmine" we watched today. Not only because my outfit is completely blue. Just like the main character of the movie, I also had some struggles during the last weeks. Struggles about letting go bad things and starting all over again.
Finally, I decided not finishing my Phd. A though decision I made, but in the end, it was the right one for me. Starting the Phd was something I actually never wanted. I forced myself going for it as I was worried not making it outside university without a Phd degree. But all the time I was working on it, it felt wrong and just not me. After seriously thinking about what makes me happy, I finally quit.
Quitting something that feels wrong from the very beginning also was the topic of "Blue Jasmine". The heroine of the movie also forced herself into a life she hated. But she denied that fact. And ended up going nuts and losing all. Life isn't about proofing somebody that you are a good person, that you are good enough for others. You have to be good enough for yourself. I did not only quit bad things this year. I also started adding new things and projects to my life that are good for me - without the proofing-you-are-good-enough-thing:
- we refurnished our appartment the way we always wanted
- we adopted our cute kitten "Hendrix" :)
- and now, I'm going to build up my own little business
as a freelance writer (you can like me on facebook here)!
The last point is something that really thrills me. I'm always thought about how it would be to be self-employed and I have so many close friends and blogging buddies who are freelancers or having their own business. And that is really something that just feels right at the moment. I really think life doesn't get better by chance (a rich husband like in Woody Allen's movie, or a job offer you can't identify with) - it gets better by change.
Linking to Patti's Visible Monday!