From time to time, I do have a massive wardrobe clear out. Not because I'm a fashion whore who rides on every trend wave, but because I love to have a good overview about what I have and what I wear. I can't imagine something worser than owning a bursting wardrobe and not knowing what to wear.
Last year, I really bought a lot of clothes. I had a bid of a identity crisis and I had to figure out who I really am. There were times in my life I really wasn't sure about that. And I tried to look cool by wearing dark colours. The result you can find in the pics below.
I used to be a sad faced, insecure woman after dealing with a bad issue within my family:
The clothes shown above really have negative vibes for me. I bought them when I was sad. The 4rd outfit is a good example for a kind of a fake look of mine: I bought some business clothes in colours that don't suit me and I really used to think I'm not good enough the way I am. That I have to look that serious to 'make it'. But is it really a success to pretend being someone you are not?
I really had a difficult relationship with my parents. My mother raised me always telling me I'm not good enough the way I am, that I'm too lively, too happy, too friendly. What she was not, she chose not to be happy by marrying someone she didn't love and to have a child she didn't want at all. And she tried all my life make me believe that the world is a cruel wicked place where you have to be cool and over-ambitious to be somebody. And always told me I will never be able to be happy.
But there was a time when I decided not to be 'somebody' - I just want to be me. And that's who I am today. The clothes shown below really resamble who I am. I don't have to be a 'Mary Marvel' to be a worthy person, I don't have to be cool and I don't have to hide who I am: A happy, lovely, friendly and lifely person who isn't afraid anymore. Not longer afraid to be herself.
I sold all these clothes that aren't me - and I will replace them with other things I really love!
Here I am in my 'me-outfits' I truely love ;)